It's been a while... again

Almost a year since I last sat down and scribbled. It's been a while since I've wanted or been able to do so. Between the last post and this one a lot has happened - I've met new friends, I've moved out, I've grown up a lot... But I've also done some stupid things. Those... well, those aren't exactly something I'm proud of, so I will move on and gloss over the awful things that have happened.

Awful things happened, culminating in a dearth of happy from about November to New Years.

I firmly hold the belief that "closure" as we would like it to be doesn't exist, but I certainly feel like a different person at the moment. I don't know why, I just do. I left everything that happened last year in last year... Let's see how long that lasts, shall we?

Sorry that it's a shorter one, but it's just a post to say that in the coming weeks this blog's going to start to pick up again. My miniscule readership should appreciate the new me. Well. Less me, me.

We'll see how it goes. Drink something for me.

Well, well, well... What have we got here then?

It's been a while, hasn't it?

I'm sorry for going all emo - give me a place to rant where no one actively responds and I will blow off steam. Its pretty terribad; I shall try not to let it happen again.

So, what to talk about. Oh yes, nerdly things.

Firstly, Ashes to Ashes' finale. Keats, I love you; come take my soul. Gene, I still <3 you. Alex, goodbye. I'm going to miss that series so much. I loved it. It was a pity that Sam didn't show up again or that the finale wasn't two hours long. I think it could have benefited from being a little longer. I need to watch it again, but it was epic. I'm going to miss LoM/A2A.

Secondly: Doctor Who Season 5/1/wtfmoffatwhathaveyoudone?

I think that last bit really sums up my sentiment to it. If his "time cracks" retcon out 5 years of established canon simply because he feels like it I will rage quit. Why? Well, I admit that RTD had his problems with things - he did a lot of stuff people didn't like - but without him Moffat wouldn't have a job or a place to start. Retconing out 5 years (and countless people's work) is going to get me right steamed. Its unprofessional. I'll hold back my full tirade until the season is over, but at this rate I am not too pleased with things.

Thirdly: BIoshock 2's Kill 'Em Kindly mode. You all should download it and play it. THose of you with PS3's should get a 360 and play it with me. It is AWESOME.

End Codex.

And now for something completly different.

I'm better now. Srsly. So much better.

Its like a 360 in attitude, srs.

Going to bed now though.

Its probably a good thing...

to decide to take a break from the forums. They're depressing me a lot at the moment. I'm overworked, I'm tired, I... generally don't want to get out of bed at the morning. I just want to take a few days off and write my papers and forget about going to lectures. I want to actually relax for once in a while. I hate having to be on my toes all the time...

I've finished an assignment. I'll probably finish paper 2 and my stats assignment tomorrow, then paper 3 can have my full attention on Thursday and Sunday. Then next week is test prep. Fffff...

I need to sleep. I need to do a lot of things.

I need to get out of my bloody house and do something. The question is what?

Blergh...

I'm not okay at the moment. I'm trying to be, but I'm not.

Enough of that, lets talk about something else.

School work. Ffffff. Depression on a stick. Two papers, one short essay due this week; stats assignment due in a week... My brain hurts.

I'm overtired. I cannot bloody well wait for this semester to be over so I can just sleep off some of my issues.

Coagulations of the Pre-Dawn Mind

Its 8 am.

I'm not awake yet.

Give me a few minutes...

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...



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Alright, slightly more awake now. Its 8:19 now. I don't think the sun is up; it wasn't at 7:30 when I woke up, but maybe that was just me being unobservant as I scrabbled for the tea pot. I sometimes wonder if I am a little bit of a hypocrite; I say I don't need caffeine, but if I didn't drink tea I wouldn't be able to get anywhere during the day. I need at least 3 cups a day to function. I can manage on one, of course, but that's pushing it a little.

Speaking of hypocracy, what is it about the facelessness of the interwebs that allows for people to be... I don't know, assholes? My apologies for the language, but its the most succinct way to describe them. From a psychology perspective, its amazing. Its a bit like the Milgram experiments, in which people will hurt others so long as someone else is in a position of authority. It happened in Nazi Germany, and probably is the concept that most military structure is based off of, but it seems to be acceptable on the internet too. Someone bothers you, you can rage and scream at them all you want and then call them a hypocrite when they pwn you. It amuses me, it scares me... Maybe its something to study later on in my degree?

We'll have to see about that.

LUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Its such a fun thing to watch hockey games and have our goalies' name shouted. He's great. He's amazing. He's LUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

I'm debating, once more, what I should do with myself. My history of psych professor was asking me today if I wanted to continue in psychology. I said I didn't know. Maybe I should cultivate some more rapport there... If I change my mind and decide to do a masters, maybe she'd be willing to help me out?

I have decided that one thing I will never ever pursue as a career: political science. Its practically a requirement to be a dick. Pomposity and arrogance + generally being a dick = political science. I think its because they are compensating for not having any science.